Eddie Izzard - possible cure for unhappiness?

Oh Eddie. No one makes me laugh like he does.



Gee I'd like to see you looking swell


Man, I so need a time machine to go back in time to see each and every performance by these guys. They are amazing.

I've been listening to my Live and Swingin': The Ultimate Rat Pack Collection. It is so hilarious, moving and beautiful.

These guys are witty, funny, great singers and impersonators and just a bit crude.

My two favourite Medleys by them are between Dean Martin and Frank Sinatra (with Sammy joining them now and then)

Medley 1: Brazil/You Are Too Beautiful/Cecilia (Does Your Mother ...)

Medley 2: I Can't Give You Anything But Love/Too Marvelous for Words

You can tell that tey really enjoy entertaining with each other - the picture below is so apt at showing how I feel when I listen to them.

They are hilarious. And classy. And have such an adorable 'little boys' charm which they can switch around easily into a manly charm.

I love them.

Why have all the greats passed away? :(

Musically, I have really been born in the wrong generation.

Oh! Get me away from here I'm dying (Play me a song to set me free)

Oh, I'll settle down with some old story
About a boy who's just like me
Thought there was love in everything and everyone
You're so naive!
They always reach a sorry ending
They always get it in the end
Still it was worth it as I turned the pages solemnly, and then
With a winning smile, the poor boy
With naivety succeeds
At the final moment, I cried
I always cry at endings


What people don't know about me is that I went through a bad depression period after my A Levels. My parents wanted me to do medicine but I was really against it, even though I knew I'd end up doing it anyway. I used to start crying while walking around th education fairs, cry while praying and I couldn't go to sleep. I had to see the doctor for an insomnia problem that occured because I'd stay up at night thinking about death.

It got so bad that I even took to the blade but I soon stopped because my elder sister caught me once and scolded me for it and because I didn't get anything out of the pain.

While walking on the road it took a lot to refrain myself from throwing myself at the passing cars. I didn't care what the result would be - a coma, death or severe injuries. I just wanted to shut my life out.

I never told anyone what I was going through and I fought it by myself. That meant everything to me. That I fought really hard with myself and came out a much stronger person for it.

Without anybody elses help.

That's the type of person I am. If I come across hurdles I like to overcome them by myself. I like them to help me grow as a person. So when people - be it my family or friends - try to help me behind my back it makes me physically ill. I seriously feel like vomiting.

I don't need anyone to make calls to ask others to look out for me, nor do I need people to tell others to not bother me.

I want to fight it myself. If I tell anyone about the things I am going through it is only because I have absolute trust in them and sometimes want to talk/rant to someone else about it. That is all. I have other ways of coping but at that time it just meant I chose you over everything else. And it actually means a lot because I don't even easily tell my family about my problems. I usually keep everything to myself.

When I need help, I ask for it. When you help me without my asking it just shows that you don't trust me to deal with my own issues. Do you really think of me as so incapable?

How long do you all plan to protect me? Until I die? Can you really do that? Why don't you just let me learn to deal with life. I'll get nowhere if all my life everyone who I care about decides they must deal with my problems.

Even strangers feel a need to protect me. From what? I would love to know, seriously. I seem to exude a 'protect me' aura.

I can't stand it. Please allow me to protect myself, I am not a newborn babe.

Yeah, she’s cleverless

Right now, I'm just replaying anything that makes me happy. Trying to focus on the positive rather than the negative. Like French actresses singing malicious songs in english!

I´ll kill her from Joerg Barton on Vimeo.

I'll kill her by Soko

So, of course, you were supposed to call me tonight
you were supposed to call me tonight
we would have gone to the cinema
and, after, to the restaurant, the one you like in your street

we would have slept together, have a nice breakfast together
and then a walk in a park together, how beautiful, and then
you would have said “i love you” in the cutest place on earth
where some butterflies are dancing with the fairies

I would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if I find her, I swear, I swear…

I’ll kill her, I’ll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
I’ll kill her, I’ll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

I would have met your friends, we would have had a drink or two
they would have liked me, ’cause sometimes I’m funny
I would have met your dad, I would have met your mum
she would have said “please, can you make some beautiful babies?”

so we would have had a boy called tom and a girl called susan, born in japan

I thought it was a love story, but you don’t want to get involved
I thought it was a love story, but you’re not ready for that …

me neither. I’ll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
I’ll kill her, I’ll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

she’s a b---- you know, all she’s got is blondeness
not even tenderness, yeah, she’s cleverless
she’ll dump your arse for a model called Brendan
he will pay for beautiful surgery ’cause he’s full of money

I would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if I find her, you know, I swear, I swear, I swear …

Oh Katie, you need to update more often. I selfishly need your comics to cheer me up.

Sorry...started a war.

How to entertain and educate yourself at the same time: Horrible Histories! I loved these books when I was a kid. It just made learning so fun. :D

I just found out that there are skits preformed from the books. It. Is. Cool.





The Tudors! My favourite royal family. Henry VIII and his six wives - and how he decided to make his own version of Christianity because the Pope wouldnt let him divorce Catherine. And then Edward who died. Mary who decided to kill anyone who didn't agree with her.and imprisoned her own sister. Elizabeth, who was a refreshing break from all the crazy ones.

And to think that they aren't exactly the craziest royalty around. There have been even more loopy ones!



"I'm arresting you for disseminating falsehoods to young children."

Man, if that really happened parents around the world would be in big trouble.

The last one gets a bit crazy at the end.

And now my mind is talking to me in a British accent. Man, why can't we have shows like these here in asia - we would love learning about our own history!

Intentions aren't everything.

“Half of the results of a good intentions are evil; half the results of an evil intention are good.”
~ Mark Twain

Just because you had good intentions, it doesn't mean you did the right thing.

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Last week was pretty bad. I'm crossing my fingers and praying that this week is much better.

For some reason I keep on thinking about the Chinese fortune teller who told my parents that
  1. I should become a doctor
  2. I should be weary of my friends
It's sad.

That's why I keep a certain distance from people. When I forget this advice and become close to or dependent on someone I am always reminded of it by a sharp slap from reality. Thanks reality, you sting.

Rufus in my pocket, you can't stop it, can't top it, don't drop it, you might just pop it!


OH MAN! I just rediscovered the Naked Mole Rap in my iTunes. Ah! The memories of watching Kim Possible. Rufus and Dr. Drakken were my favourite!

Yo', listen up, have a howler from Ron.
'Naked Mole Rap' is the name of the song. (Word!)
Here's a story in all it's glory.
Ain't hidin' nothin', don't know what the truth is how Ron met Rufus.
Never heard a cat bark,
Never heard a puppy purr,
My dad's allergic to every kind of fur.
So I surfed for hairless pets on the internet,
Saw a jpeg of a pink thing...
Gonna need sunscreen!

What is that? That freaky thing?
(Yes, that's right, it's the naked mole rat.)
Come on y'all, let the girlies sing!
(Listen to the naked mole rap!)
Uh huh! What is that? That freaky thing?
(Yes, that's right, it's the naked mole rat.)
Hey, wait, I can't hear the girls sing!
(Listen to the naked mole rap!)

I heard'a Smartie Mart was havin' a sale on a hairless pink rodent with a long skinny tail.
(That's me!)
It seemed to be this good be a solution,
The perfect pet for my dad's sensitive constitution!
So the manager came to open the cage,
He said, "You know this pet's hairless?"
I said, "I couldn't care less!"
Handed him to me, said, "Be careful don't drop it, and do you want this cage?"
"No, I'll keep him in my pocket!"
(Yay-hay!)

Haha! What do you mean I'm too old for this? Any age is the perfect age to enjoy this rap.

How can anyone not love this? :)

My aim in life

To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and to endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.
(Bessie Anderson Stanley)

The girl who silenced the world for 5 minutes



I wish I was as amazing as this girl.

Foes that wanna make sure my casket's closed

Just when one problem gets solved another crops up. There's no room to breathe apparently.

Oh well - fight on Zia! Life isn't easy but it sure makes you think a lot.


The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

If you're havin' girl problems I feel bad for you son

I got 99 problems but a girl ain't one

Hit me!

To carry the weight of unravelling where we went wrong

Sick of drama.

Everything changes,
everything falls apart.
Can't stop to feel myself losing control
but deep in my senses I know...
How stupid could I be?
A simpleton could see...

Dil ki jo baatein hain, baatein jo dil ki hain dil hi mein rakhna piya



I've become obsessed with this song, it's just so soft and melodic and makes my heart melt.

But I really hated the male lead in this movie. I just wanted to slap him. >:( He was such an egoistical coward.

But the girl was awesome! She's one of my favourite actresses. And her character in this movie was so dignified and strong! She was great.




And this one is just so cute. It never fails to make me go 'aww'.

Don't wake me I plan on sleeping in

But at my back I always hear
Time's winged chariot hurrying near;
And yonder all before us lie
Deserts of vast eternity.
To His Coy Mistress - Andrew Marvell

Lately I've been feeling like death is chasing me eagerly and that I don't have much time left. An odd sort of anxiousness has taken over me making me want to get things done before I leave.

I don't understand how I can fear and anticipate death at the same time.

Maybe it's not so much that I want to die as it is that I want to rest in peace.

A lot of times I like to wonder what people would say to me if they knew that I would die the next day. I guess everyone would lie and say something nice about me.

I notice that's what people always do, no matter how much they might have disliked the person, or even if they didn't really know the person., they will always say what an amazing person the deceased was and what a loss it is for this world to lose them. I can understand why we do it, but it doesn't make it any less fake.

MSF: Violence expands in northern DRC - population in urgent need of assistance



Kinshasa – One year after violence erupted in Haut-Uélé district, in northern Democratic Republic of Congo (DRC), attacks and clashes have now expanded to new areas, forcing hundreds of thousands of people to flee. Humanitarian organisations have failed to meet the massive needs that have resulted and an urgent response with greater presence in the rural areas of Haut-Uélé and Bas-Uélé is imperative, says the international humanitarian organisation Médecins Sans Frontières (MSF).

Since late 2008, the civilian population of Haut-Uélé and Bas-Uélé has been caught up in a dramatic cycle of violence linked to attacks perpetrated by the Ugandan rebel group the Lord's Resistance Army (LRA), and the Ugandan and Congolese offensive against the LRA. As the situation deteriorates, civilians also find themselves facing increasing banditry.

“The local population is the target of violence: murder, kidnapping and sexual abuse,” said Luis Encinas, coordinator of MSF operations in Central Africa. “We are talking about tactics of violence aimed at instilling fear in the people. Our patients have told us the most brutal stories – about children who are forced to kill their parents and people burnt alive inside their homes.”

The violence and armed confrontations have gradually expanded, now stretching from Haut-Uélé into Bas-Uélé in northeastern DRC, as well as in the neighbouring regions of southern Sudan and eastern Central African Republic.

Hundreds of thousands of people have been displaced over the last year. Ongoing attacks continue to send thousands fleeing to seek shelter and greater security in towns. The population of Doruma city has tripled. The towns of Gangala and Banda are each hosting more than 20,000 displaced without assistance. These locations have become enclaves with outlying fields and villages left deserted.

In several places like Dingila or Niangara, MSF remains the only humanitarian organisation present.

“New people are being displaced everyday in the region,” said Pierre Kernen, MSF coordinator in Niangara, a town located in western Haut-Uélé. “They have been forced to flee one time, two times, three times… They have sought shelter with local families or in empty buildings but they still don’t feel safe there. MSF is providing medical and psychological care, but we have our limits. These people also urgently need food, clean water, shelter and proper living conditions.” Due to insecurity and the absence of roads in these very isolated areas, MSF has had to use airplanes to bring supplies, drugs and staff to most of its project locations.

“Delivering humanitarian aid to the people of this region is, of course, a challenge, but we believe much more can and must be done to address the consequences of this war on the population. Humanitarian organisations should urgently address people’s needs in areas that are most affected by the fighting and have so far been neglected,” concluded Encinas.

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How could I forget? We never have it as bad as we suspect we do. I'm here to bring a positive change - I shouldn't let the negativity of others affect me.

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend

People are disappointing. How had I forgotten that?

Why do I so foolishly persist in believing that you are capable, but that you're just not aware of it yet.

Please don't make me lose hope.

And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple in the moonlight by the morning never is